crisis

God has been taking me once again deal with the fundamental questions of our faith. We could call this process as crisis. 

I have received once again some revelations about some basic truths of our life. 

1) I am sinner. That's the nature of Adam living in me. I can't do anything good by myself. And I'll never be able to do. I can try my best to not to sin, but the law of sin and death will win me sooner or later.

2) God knows my reality and He always did. He couldn't wait anything good from me and that's why He sent His son to pay my debts completaly when I was still His enemy. I am forgiven.

3) Even though I'm forgiven God doesn't expect anything from me because I still live in this fallen body and soul even though my spirit has been renewed. That's why He sent the Holy Spirit, the Spirit of Chirst's perfection to live in me. He does everything in me I'm not able to do by myself. 

4) God loves me. He loves me because He loves me because He loves me because He loves me because He loves me because He loves me because He loves me because He loves me because He loves me because He loves me because He loves me because He loves me because He loves me. 

I can do nothing to make Him love me less. I can do nothing to make Him love me more.

Doesn't sound anything new right? However I have noticed once again how I struggle to believe these basic truths and live according them. I still struggle to fully believe I'm forgiven and loved. It's still so easy to try to do things on my own strength.

All these revelations are amazing! We know that every crisis are important in order to grow up. However let me tell you something. It's everything but easy and pleasant to understand your sinfulness and the corruption of your heart. For God's sake it hurts!

However in the midst of the brokenness we can see His love clearer and deeper than ever before. 

It's easy to get frustrated because I haven't yet internalized these basic truths. But to be honest I'm so grateful God let me to this place once again. 

I am loved. I have peace. 

I can't do it. I don't need to do it. 

Graduation of the Counceling School

Hey guys! For them who didn't know yet... I did it! I graduated from the YWAM 2nd level School of Biblical Counseling. 

To be honest I'm proud of this achievement! I mean, I never had problems with primary school, high school etc... But to be honest the YWAM schools really takes your to another level when it's all about your character, your integrity, your willingness to renounce and change. In these schools we live together 24/7 so there's no space for faking or living a double life.

So honestly this school was way more difficult I imagined. All of my school mates felt at least once that they just want to leave the school and go back home. Well, I didn't because I knew this was my place. But I'm just so thankfull for the staff and leadership that they had grace over me and didn't send me home even when I might deserve it.

God totally guided me through all these 6 months and I'm just amazed by what He did. For the first time for many many years I'm actually doing good with myself. I just love the man God made me! I have way much clearer idea who I am as a son, as beloved, as man, as warrior. I understand I was created for intimacy with my Daddy God and I don't need to do anything to get there. Just allow Him to enter to my reality and brokeness. This all just make me wonder if I even was a believer before this school? Yes, I believed, but so many lies about myself and God. 

In the same time there's so many processes that just started during the school and now it's time to keep on walking in this new truth I received. Many times we want the chances quickly and it's easy to get frustrated when you don't see that much chance. It's scary to see that even after receiving so much healing your inner enemies are still real and it's still easy to deceive yourself. 

But I decide to live above the fear of going back to the old. The fear will not control me, but I grab it as a weapon I point against every enemy rising up their head. Beware, I'm not fighting in my own strength any more!

I wanted to become better during the school. I didn't. What I did, I discovered the good God had already set in me. And well, with all the bad that's still there... I became more dependent - more dependent on God and the help of my family around. 

Ok, let's not get that emotional. Let's show the photos of the graduation! 

Diploma! 

The MC's of the night: Javier & Juli

Beulah sharing the word 

My friends from the Ituzaingó´s base really
surprised me and came to visit me.
Thank u so much guys!

I'm gonna miss this guy. Even though Lisandro was not part of our school, we became really good friends.

The last night all together!

But yeah, I just want to thank you all for sharing this journey with me. I can't find words to thank you for your prayers, encouragement and support. I love you people!

Let's give thanks for:

• God really healed me and shaped me during the school
• The good health and support during the school
• The amazing outreach

Let's pray for:

• All of the school mates that they'd allow God to finish His work in their life
• Refreshment for all the staff members and leadership
• My new time in YWAM Ituzaingó here in the province of Buenos Aires

P.S. So basicly I'm back in the YWAM base here in Ituzaingó, Buenos Aires. It's good to be back here and I feel really loved and welcomed once again. I'm working in the art ministry where I used to be before as well. Hope to write some updates soon!

There is freedom

This week of the counseling school was just amazing! We finished the identity classes and moved into the ministration time. 

Basically all of us shared to the fellow school mates and leaders a bit (or a bit more) about our backgrounds and what God had been revealing during these first weeks. Then we received prayer. 

Holy Spirit was totally ministering all of us and we were just able to see His power! Even the appearance of each one of us changed during the ministration and the rest of the base was able to notice the change! :D

Of course the week was also heavy. Each of us was being ministered at least an hour and a half. Sometimes the spiritual atmosphere got really heavy when the enemy was exposed. But as the children of God we fight from the victory that we already have. So the darkness needed to step away from the real light.

God spoke me personally so much during this week. We as students were praying for each others and receiving words of encouragement, wisdom and prophecy or whatever Holy Spirit laid on our hearts. I was happy to notice that Holy Spirit wanted to use me a lot to bless others! It's just something I love to do!

But this week was such a week of freedom. As a group we are way much closer now and God released so much joy over us. 

Well, this is just the beginning. There's still so much more to learn, to receive, to mature. It needs time and work but more than anything a intimate relationship with the Father.

Arnulfo's birthday party

We do have homework!

Every Sunday to the church!

Few words about my residence. Basically I'm still waiting for one lacking document.  They first told me it should be ready in 15 days. But well, the day after tomorrow it will be one month since I've been waiting. I already lost one turn to the Immigrations but I'll have a new one on Tuesday the 23rd. Please pray with me that the last document would be ready soon and that I wouldn't need to make the other documents again because of this delay.


Praise God!

• for the miracles he did and the healing we received

• for my health. (something bit me or something and my face was partly swollen for few days! Now it's much better!)

Let's pray for:

• my residence

• the finances for the school and for the outreach