This week I have been really tired. Physically, emotionally and spiritually.
We started the week with classes about "Grace & Truth". In the beginning I wasn't really interested but I thought: "This stuff about the balance of Gospel and Law is so basic stuff. I have heard this teaching soooo many times..." But during the classes I understood that even though I had heard so much teaching about this topic I still hadn't got it!
It seems to be so difficult for our human mind to understand God's grace and truth. One more reason to renew my mind!
Yesterday I wrote it this way:
Why is it so hard to understand...
- that my life is not about structures or rules but about knowing God?
- that knowing Him is not about information but about a relationship with Him?
- that a relationship is not about the right words or strick schedule but about intimacy?
- that the intimacy doesn't come through being good but through being real?
- that being real doesn't mean false humility (that's pride btw) but showing the good and the bad that you are?
- that God loves you and needs you that way!?!?
- that the fact I wrote these words and agree with them doesn't mean that I live them out in my thoughts, emotions and actions?
So to be honest this week has been all about hanging on God's grace. I haven't had any own strenght so I just have to hang on Him. And that's the way it should always be! Cause He's my strenght.
The memory verse of my school for this week is Gal. 5:1 (NIV)
It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.
Stand firm, then,
and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.
That's a really key in my life. Chirst has set me free from every yoke of sin and religion - which I have experienced both! I must stand firm on His grace and truth in order to stay free!
Or as it says in 2nd Cor 12:9 (MSG)
My grace is enough;
it’s all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
His grace is enough for me! I pray that I may really understand it and live out my freedom!
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| this is a BIG FAT LIE! |
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| this is the TRUTH that sets you FREE! |
Thanks for walking with me on this journey. May God bless you heaps!
I'm thankful for:
- His grace that holds me even when I don't understand
- I got to see my favourit Christian DJ last week - for FREE..!
- God has been using me to encourage and counsel some friends here!
- for every financial support I have received! Thank you friends! Thank you God!
I'm praying for:
- More deep understanding about His grace
- Finances to the school and for the outreach starting in January
- strenght for everyday and that all the tensions and headache would leave totally
